Monday, July 8, 2013

So...Large With Child

I am on the home stretch.
Only three weeks to go.
I'm trying to keep smiling and stay positive, but I am so done.  I was done yesterday.
This pregnancy really has flown by.  Until this month.  Now I feel like I am making up the time that flew because it seriously feels like slow motion.  It's hard to tell if that's because I'm sick of being pregnant or because I'm just anxious for our baby to be here.  Like a child waiting for Christmas morning, the night seems forever long.  I think it's a little of both.
But it's all good.

If I have learned anything through pregnancy, it is that it always does come to an end.  Even when it feels like it never will end - it will.  And it does.  And it's not so bad.  Our little guy will be here soon enough and this torturous time waiting will be quickly forgotten.  And then I will be tormented by how fast time is flying by again while I watch my baby grow too fast before my eyes.  Perhaps I am OK after all with the speed life is moving at these days.  If only it could stay this way after the baby comes...

But seriously - I am very large with child.
Sometimes it's hard to believe that there is any more growth that needs to occur.  It is obvious this baby is already plenty big!  My belly is so giant as I carry the baby entirely outside of my body.  It's always been that way for me and by this time all I can do is laugh at how large and in charge I am.  (Excuse me - how large my belly is.  I promised Husband I would practice separating the size of my stomach from the size of my body.  He worries that I am not being kind to myself when I say that I am so big.  He is so sweet to think of my feelings and self worth :) ).

People have been asking me recently if I am sad thinking that this is the last time that I will be pregnant.  They wonder if I will miss it and if I feel sad as it is coming to an end.  My answer is - absolutely not.  I do not feel sad and at this point I don't think I will miss it.  Pregnancy is wonderful, beautiful, and I actually kinda like it.  But I am so excited to be done. 

I am excited to have our family here and excited to enjoy raising these children with Husband.  We have had such a calm, confident feeling of completion throughout this pregnancy.  It has been such a blessing.  I feel like we have accomplished a great work in bringing (almost) five beautiful, strong, healthy children into this world.  I can't be anything but grateful for this incredible opportunity I have had to carry and bare the children that I have.

No, I will not miss it.  No, I will not be sad.  I will forever be grateful for the experience and hopefully never take for granted the blessing and honor it is to be a mother. may also like::
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Kelly said...

You are beautiful!

Meg said...

Thank you Kelly! That is the best thing anyone could say to a very pregnant lady :)

Christina said...

Such beautiful thoughts! Such great perspective! I am still wrestling with when we will feel done. I hope for that same peace that you've had this time around! Crossing my fingers for you that the next 3 weeks fly by!

MommyMert said...

I love your beautiful bellys. All 5 of them!! (Ok... 4 I didnt know you with Katies.) So so excited to meet baby boy J.

Autumn said...

I'm so excited to meet him too! You're almost done. :)

Lexi Powell said...

I have always thought you look so cute when pregnant! Seeing your pics is making me a little sad that I won't have another pregnancy but I love your attitude!